Day care dilemma...

Amu was 8 months old when Pawan and I had boh exhausted all kinds of leave possible with childbirth.
Yes, dads can take bonding leave too, not many avail it though.. I think Pawan is an exceptional father.
I can see in the way he handles the baby..he is wonderful..
He spent a month at home with her before he had to get back to work...and there we were the hard fact staring at us in the face.
So, we had to put her in a day care? Oh god!!! not my baby...
We found one lady pretty easily and were satisfied with her..
the day we met her, I felt sick. Because i wanted to work, I sent my child - the most precious thing in my life- to be taken care of by some one else? Was I really considering doing this?
It turned out to be yes, I was... and it has been 6 weeks since she started day care.
Every day is an ordeal for me -oh no, it has nothing to do with Amu-as soon as I wake up, the guilty pang begins. I know Amu's look. She need not say anything. I am sure she must be puzzled.
She hangs on to me and refuses to go to her nanny when we get there. But just once and as if she has resigned to the fact, she goes off with a pitiable look on her face. And the excitement with which she greets me when I pick her up, actually makes me feel more guilty.
Her nanny is only too happy about her. "she is such a nice baby, never heard her cry really.. and always smiling" WOW! lali you are amazing...
She is afterall a baby...I thought a couple of weeks into it and we'll get used to it.. but no, I feel really sad each and everyday!!!!

And the weekends and the days she is home with us, I see a marked difference in her behavior.. she is happy and excited

Why does parenting come with so many tough choices? Does every mom have these feelings or am I over reacting?
Amu I hope you understand and fogive me.
God give me strength to quit this job and stay home with her...let that day come soon.
Every night I wish the next day I did not have to work and get to spend time with Amu...